just a short note before i sleep.

Finished the movie
well i cant stop thinkin about it so couldnt go sleep
sad ending.
two ppl left they didnt get sick but everyone aroeound them r all dead.
i guess theres no point for them to live anymore.
nothing to do. nothing to live with

he left his gf
alone.
she will die by herself no one will see.
his brother killed him
he had no choice.

Wondering if tat happens wat i will do. n wat will u do
family? love? frineds?
if u wanna servive. u hav to give up on everything else
n live by ur slef. alone til forever

My bak is srsly fuked up now couldnt even sit the fuken up fuck
n my brain is totaly fuked up too lmao



how can i live with out family, friend n u
well
i am.
arent i..?


dad n mum
i love you.
im not lying i really do really really love you.
i dunno if u still do or not. im sorry
from i was lil i never turly trust anyone
i learnt
once u giving ur trust. u lose

same rule

i couldnt follow you
you not just you.
the -you- i said means all of you.
wen u liking me. i treat u as a friend
wen u start loving me. i start liking you
wen u want to leaving me. i start loving you
wen u left me. i stay, n keep loving you.

i can never follow ur steps.

never.


if we never take things so srsly
we might can always be happy always smile.
there will be no fight no tears n no hurts.

but
then what we live for?

i feel like im living in pain in hurt in a fuken bloody hell
but everyone around me
makes me smile. make me feel loved. make me loving.
maybe thats y i couldnt go.
cant just left. cus its selfish.
i hate ppl who decide to kill themselfs. is stupid n showing tat ur wake
ur too wake. couldnt even living for ppl who loves you.. u need to stay
even it hurts, more than death

wondering
what is the point
for me
to stay.




if oneday i decide to go somwhere far far away. wont see or talk or touch with me anymore
will you go with me..?
or will you even
miss me.