hmmm my net is back=]

i dunno y im feelin really weird today><
I GOT WTF CHINESE ON MY TIME TABLE TT
FUCK I DIDNT EVEN CHOOSE IT =( n its not fun as i thought..
i want film & ftv honest..
but sigh should i change to it..?
=/
n i dont lik graphic>< not tat much..bec im not so good at it =0
so should i change graphics or chinese._。？

whos in tat film class...TT

im tryin to makin my phonee look better now =D
but honest i think i made it uglier = =
n glueTT on my finger..TT

i covered ur fuken letter with a cross ;D it looks sexy =)
n feels sexy too bahaha GOODJOB LL ;D

but y u cutted urself o.0
errm
go bak if u cant let it go=)
best wishes to you.

sigh


my face fuced = =
TT DIDNT PUT ANYTHING ON BUT IT LOOKED FUKED TT
like red,,? n scaryTT
almost scared me wen lookin at the mirror =( help..
decide to tie my hair up tomorrow =D kay imm goin to look really weird if u laugh u die= =

faceeeee arhhhh TT
get better soon plz..?
see im tryin to do everythin for u so
TT
please get better TT

stop blgging. or ill hav nothin to say to u
><" ewww sorry?
keke <3 bai

I'm happy

The best way to stay happy is keep telling your self that
I'M HAPPY =D.

ur smile worth everything

FML class this mornin lol
we were talkin about 2012 TT n i was too serious..
from these earthquake. floods. volcanic eruptions. n dead animals D; we can see wats goin on=/
n this afternoon. me n mum went to the gas station but it says NO MORE GAS there 0__0
bec of the hm flood? ;(
remmeber the movie 2012? it says bec of the rapid reversal of earths latitude n longitude everythin changed. N ITS HAPPENING NOW D; tats the reason y these birds dead.
then earthquake? well theres so many earthquake r happenin right now even last year or the year before tat. things r changing. not just these natural stuff, also things inside us.
believe, trust, love.
we used to standing n living for them but where r they now. i cant see
maybe just not around me but =) r they around u..?

i dunno wat to say but TT im 18 in 2012.. was dreamin about tat day ;D
freeedom bahahha^^
but seems goin to be endin soon ;( id love to do everythin before i -end- even study. be a good girl. ill try my best to be one =)

someone said to me before -a smile worth everything-
tat person n me might forget each other in the future but ill always remeber this, n tell others
you have a beautiful smile =D

we all do.

LOL tats wat i do wen im workin n facing teachers- - IT WORKS >=D

imm decide to make some changes n___n maybe they r lil maybe u cant see
ill do it as best as i could ;D
everyone likes smiling face.
promised u will never do fake smiles anymroe so =D
lets make the real ones <3

dad told me to not sittin here for too long cus my face changed alot in only 3 days..;( n range at mum this mornin cus i couldnt find my phone TT wat did i do omg..

last nite was thinkin wat am i living for..
= = n couldnt sleep 0__0 feel lik even the end of world is comin now im not scared n blahblah nothin to miss nothin to love nothin to stay for - -
errrm posted on fb n someone told me the answer was everything.
live for
everything?
smile. happy n also angry n sad x) tats wat made our life colorful =D

some jap ppl did a test. lik put letters inside water n put the water in fridge.
the letter got good words on it lik (LOVE. HAPPINESS..) turned to beautiful n amazin color but letter with bad words lik (HATE. DISLIKE..)turned to ugly colors =0
my teacher told me this morning about this cute test ;D
might can find the video on youtube so im goin to search it later n put on fb so
have a look if u want ;D
n givee me a smile after u seen it x)

so im gettin off early today ;(
n tomorrow..
n hm maybe wont be late anymore
u better do the same <3

enjoy ur special night x) miss u.

10-1-11

TODAY.

today is my grandpa's bday ;D hes hm around 74 or 75 or 76 or maybe 77 now
hm 75 to 76 i think._." anyways i called him n was cryin when he said he miss me ;( i miss you tooTT n happy birthday my cutte grandpapa ;D

today is pigs interview day but YAYYAYA BAHAHHHAA raining x)
so no one was there beside a cleaner x) LOL hahaha imma so happy..
BUT = = he told us to come bak next week n teachers might be there = =fck.
ill try my best to dress lik a errm hardcore slut n told them pig is a retard n we r lesbians n blahblah mak them dont want her anymore x)
dw~ u knoe i love you n___n

photos r on my fb havva look if u wanna look ;D i like them x) i looked funny bahahaha

should stop laughin..
too happy today x)
n got someones text this morning lol well maybe last nite but i saw it this morning.
What you want from me:
1. a baby
2. another chance
3. love
4. a kiss
5. friendship
6. lap dance
7. to chill
8. to cuddle
9. a hug
10. a relationship
11. sex partner.
FUCK NO.11 - - n i odnt lik number 5 cus unlesss ur firned with me already or u wont text me..-0- n sorry about i wont givee u a baby 0__0 cus i cant..><" errm i dont get the lap dance one o.0

wen i pick up ur call i was SO SUPRISED n just finished cryin well still abit tears on my eyes TT
n....i couldnt really hear u..><
ANYWAYS IM SO HAPPY HEARD UR VOICE ;D even it wasnt tat clearTT -stupid phone= ="-
i miss you =)

hmmm danny is so cute <3

amazing day x)

PIGS INTERVIEW TOMORROW TT^TT

sorry bby hav to sleep soon tonite=/
pigs interview tomorrow = =
F U C K
dont wanna give her awayTT
sigh
feel lik imm her mum - -"
well hm
=)
good luck to me.. LOL
n bad luck to pig.. kekeke

-dont readd this dont read><-

AWWW YEAHH
i stayed at home today again.
but had a srs coooooool dream last nite maybe tats y i can still remmeber now cus its so cooooooooool

i was wagging. with a girl forget who but prob was pig.. we went to some other ..other skools? but only old ppl there 0__0 maybe they r not school then..
n we went alot differnt places.. saw animals n insects runnin/flyin around
trees n grasses n flowers n .. alot weird things ><
n RAIN!

then a guy OMG hes so .. hm weird
hes like a guy from anime but hes handsome ;D
found us =( n was tryin to tak us back ;( bec i was too kind>< so i told him theres a superman behind him = =" made him turned around then wen he face me again pig had run away already.. but i still there =(

then he was tryin to takin me back to the skoolTT n not macg i duno wat skool was tat..a scary one n i dont wanna come backTT
so i KISSED HIM 0___0"

well i kissed him not bec he was handsome or watever was cus i wanted to escape..?
but OMFG WE KISSED 0___0
later after he closed his eyes i successed run away from him n tat skool again - -
n went back to the errrm forest..?>< lookin for pig..

then i woke up.
was 3pm already

UNTIL NOW I STILL FEEL LIK A KISS
0___0
i want a kiss D;

might get one from pig tomorrow hm ._. if no one want to give me one..
need to sleep soon tonight><
be pig's MUMY tomorrow = =
bl for us >=D

PRINCE.

Daniel.
half korean half french
hm videos Danny受伤了
can find him from google but not youtube ;(
hes cute <3 handsome =P

theres actually
more photos TT
but couldnt upload..
=/ sorry

just a short note before i sleep.

Finished the movie
well i cant stop thinkin about it so couldnt go sleep
sad ending.
two ppl left they didnt get sick but everyone aroeound them r all dead.
i guess theres no point for them to live anymore.
nothing to do. nothing to live with

he left his gf
alone.
she will die by herself no one will see.
his brother killed him
he had no choice.

Wondering if tat happens wat i will do. n wat will u do
family? love? frineds?
if u wanna servive. u hav to give up on everything else
n live by ur slef. alone til forever

My bak is srsly fuked up now couldnt even sit the fuken up fuck
n my brain is totaly fuked up too lmao



how can i live with out family, friend n u
well
i am.
arent i..?


dad n mum
i love you.
im not lying i really do really really love you.
i dunno if u still do or not. im sorry
from i was lil i never turly trust anyone
i learnt
once u giving ur trust. u lose

same rule

i couldnt follow you
you not just you.
the -you- i said means all of you.
wen u liking me. i treat u as a friend
wen u start loving me. i start liking you
wen u want to leaving me. i start loving you
wen u left me. i stay, n keep loving you.

i can never follow ur steps.

never.


if we never take things so srsly
we might can always be happy always smile.
there will be no fight no tears n no hurts.

but
then what we live for?

i feel like im living in pain in hurt in a fuken bloody hell
but everyone around me
makes me smile. make me feel loved. make me loving.
maybe thats y i couldnt go.
cant just left. cus its selfish.
i hate ppl who decide to kill themselfs. is stupid n showing tat ur wake
ur too wake. couldnt even living for ppl who loves you.. u need to stay
even it hurts, more than death

wondering
what is the point
for me
to stay.




if oneday i decide to go somwhere far far away. wont see or talk or touch with me anymore
will you go with me..?
or will you even
miss me.

Am i not pretty enough =)

hm pretty bored day again.
at home
woke up around 3pm (slept around 5am last nite>.>)
watched The loved ones
friend told me about this movie before
a nice one^^

i love the song from this movieeee~

Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
...Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me,
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break,
I crave, I love, I’ve waited long enough,
I try as hard as I can.

Why do you see, why do you see, why do you see right through me..'

so imm =)
goin to sleep soon..
n i think
i am wastin my life..
just as H-na told me last nite-only need to study in high skool times-
lol hes not a nerd btw xD a pretty cooooooooool guy x)
age almost can be my uncle.. so._." jks haha hes errm around 21 to 22 or 23.. i cant remeber TT"

n pig. talk to me soon about the outin on monday D; missed ur message again - -"

n i miss your handsome face =)

我不可以 没有你

pig.
think u got my text already
=]
this is the 1st time
i wrote these stuff for u
sound gross i knoe so shutup= ="

sigh

i need you.

never
i never think about one day we might be separate
Separate?
separate.

dont blam anyone
or anything.
cus nothing
will change for you
Nothing.

but
y..
y alwasy happen on me
maybe
i shouldnt love you
then
maybe
u wont go.

im sorry
all my fault..

i love you pig=)

havent said i love u or i need u to someone
for so long
be srs n be honest
u r the one
i can give up on everythin for

be selfish
i want you stay
with me =)
as always.. arent we happy togeter?
=/
u r my happiness
the only person
i can share everything with.
the most happiness n happy time of my life
is wen im with u.

is not a lie.
i realy do
love to be with you


anyways if u decide to go
best wishes n gl
ill always be here for u wen u need me
just remmeber n plz think about me all the time =)
like i always do=)
keep me in ur heart
lik how i keep u in mine.





hm not goin to write any other thing done today.
all for u
my retard pig.

raining night

awwwww today i did try to made 2 cutee rabbit
n yaya they looked cute n___n
havent tak any phoot of them but i hav the photos of the orginal ones:

hm

alot stuff on my mind atm..
=/
sigh

finished one of my huge drawin - -
tat was huge..
about my table size
is a lady sittin there lookin down. i like her eyes
she looks sad but still got a smile on her face
a really light smile=)

another thing - -
i realized ME N PIG
seemed REALLY HARD to get together - -
lik everytime i wanna go out she always busy but wen she wants to go out i always cant TT
n wen im online shes alwayus offline
wen i just went offline
then shes on = =
after she went off..
im on again ...

she lost her phone ages ago n i thoguht she didnt hav a new one?
so i texted her dad's number..
TT i swear wasnt meant to do tat
was accident..
i was sleepin..well half sleep..?
then i had a dream n she was in it
so i texted her- -
but tat was her dad's number..
lucky he didnt reply me ><"

n THANKKS BABY.
hope you get better soon =/
is rainin here - -
n is really loud- -
n i hate rain- -
n it makes me feel annoying- -
n i miss you- -
n alot- -
n i feel bad now- -
cus listed too many sad things- -
anyways D; WEAR MORE CLOTHES = =
n drink more water- -
if u dont care about ur own health D; then..
fine.

but guess u would care if tat made me worried alot =P
so do wat i said <3

n sleep soon n___n
u need mroe sleep to get better =)
nites cutie=D
nites blog <3

TOTORO

i made a errm totoro today - -
heechul's cat's color =D
sigh looked fail >< mum thought i was holdin a dirty sock.. = =
but it smells really good n___n
not look lik the pic here anyways - - mines cuter..

spend alot time lookin at weird well i call them SPECIAL pictures today n yesterday
feel lik find somethin with awesome design

hmm
hmm
hmm

true.
im bored - -

another thing my hair color is totaly turned to brown now
= =
tats sucks
= =
frineds used to say my hair looked lik BLOOD N ... somthin >.>
but now is really look lik SOMTHING= =
rather to havv the blood or period one well watever u call it - -

ngawwww
yea
im unhappy
about somthing=/

miss alot ppl.
watched the movie called the last ex..
guess i wont remember how to spell it forever=/
wateched it my self
this afternoon
wasnt tat great as i thoguth or as it looks lik 0__0
the beginnin part is more lik a talkin show? D;
didnt even see where these scary points are..- -

so
hm
guess im goin soon
=/
miss you special cutie.
n pig
n hm dont wanna say the name here but well snail? =D
n Someone (i dunno who but feel lik i miss osmeone maybe heechul?)

nites <3

annoyed?

hm pretty bored day but hav alot to say
woke up around 12 n stayin at toliet for more than 30mins
playin with my mess hair ><

got ur -Morning- text lol
happiness moment<3

went eat yoghurt n putted some on my face ._.
but after i washed it out my face didnt turn white at all = =
WHYYYYY TT^TT

horror movie times..
start watchin them since this holiday start
n now only 12 movies havent seen;D (all together is 40)
awwwwww feel lik watch one with youuu
or pig = =
pig OMG I JUST SAW YOUR PHOTOS WITH HER
HOW COULD YOU DO THAT
you are MINE MINE MINE
....
i knoe u lov me more =( even im more retard n crazy than her
but i still knoe you are that kind of person who cares about looks more..
LOL
am i right? ;P

grrrr
y all important ppl r leavin me
WHY
;(
sigh if i really did somthin wrong god plz dont punish me lik this way..
you taken my happiness away = =

sittin in my back yard for 2 hours this afternoon
feelin the breath from grass n sunlight
lookin at these ugly lil birds flyin around
n my half dead flower with the tears on itTT

felt so great
n brautiful
even i saw 2 kangaroos jumpin around @___@
still made me felt cute n__n well used to think they r huge n scary - -
...went bak to watch videos again cus insects start bitin me ;(

did my nails to sliver pink with black shine dots on it
looks lik one of my clothes xD
awww feel lik doin somthin with the CUTE FEEL errm material 0__0? the cloth thing but srsly more lik a kitty skin n___n
n tats sliver
JUST LIKE THAT MOTHERFUCKER CUTE CAT WAS LOOKIN AT ME WEN I WEND THE PLAZA PET SHOP ;D
OMFG 1ST TIME A CAT LOOKING AT ME
his eyes was beautiful. almost takin my breath away
hmm his name was OMG
0__0
i cant remmeber..
was somthing TT somthing simple but cool
Lu? forget =/ well im goin to call you Lu from now my dear kitty kitty
but anyways i might mak a hm sliver cat? with that special material<3

another awesome thing happend thses days was i saw heechul
yeahh heechul TT hee chul..
heechul in brisbane n he was walkin passed with his gf = =
n shes pretty...tats not heechul i knoe but that guy
he had heechul's face. his smile. his hairstyle. his everything
OMG HE WAS LOOKIN AT ME WHEN IM SHOCKED N STARING AT HIM
sigh.
id go ask his number is his gf wasnt there = =
n im sure he will give me.. ;(

Dinner time~!
i dont really eat when im alone at home o.0 cus more freedom n finally no one force me to eat^^
but i do eat alot chocolates..TT n ice creams.. i love ice cream =/ do you?
yayayaya had simon fish as my dinner while watchin a horror movie call HUNGER
about 5 strangers got chain together in a deep..room?beside a knife n water(27000L? forget but enough for them to live more than few month) so if they wann serive they hav to eat each other..
felt weird cus i was eatin fresh simon..>.>
so stopped eatin n went shower
-washin out the uncomfortableness-

then parents home
me n dad had fight again
he said bs to me n i said ill do somthin mak him regret wat he just said to me
sigh
all start bec of they found me watchin too much horror movies
so they said im not lik a girl specialy not doing what a girl in my age should be doin
n mum worried about one day i might go kill someone n mak a video = =
well another reason was bec i dont wanna watchin the fukin math study video - -
wtf is tat fuked up shit
well..the video is lik.. an old man sittin there lookin at the camera with no emotions n sayin
Hello students, today we are going to talk about...
then examples of questions n show us how he slove them = =
WTF WTF is not goin to help anythin about my study..?0_0 tats just a creepy shit which might brin me nitemares= =

n aftrer that i turned to emo mood- -

Now im at my bed room
lookin at fb photos
well pretty bored =/
should sleep but not sleepy..?
hmmm
lookin at your text n feel lik AWWWWWWWW <3 such a sweet baby
n now im touching ur pretty lil face with my finger
errm yeahh a photo on my screen TT with ur here with me;(

lol you can make me smile alot too =)
so Gnite dear blog<3